New Blog

It has been a very long time. For the next 100 days I will be posting to the 100 Days blog that can be accessed by clicking on my profile. Happy New Year!

I miss walking

It has been 11 days since surgery. The weather has been gorgeous the past few days and its making me miss walking even more. But I have been being patient and keeping it elevated and icing it. I have been watching what I eat. Cooking whole grains, eating raw vegetables and legumes. No weight loss but no weight gain. I am enjoying being at home, and having my Grandson here to look after me.

Foot surgery

Being over weight on crutches really sucks. I have had to very nice trips. I managed to get down a few pounds. Then I gained it back. Now I've had foot surgery and I feel the weight.

The Twelve Days of Fitness

Today I realized I had 12 days until we take a girls getaway trip that I planned for my mother, my daughter and me. I grew some obnoxious body fat this winter, lounging around complacently, doing as I pleased, etc. I've been halfhearted in my attempts to reverse the process but made a commitment over the weekend to go to the gym each day. This morning when I counted the days to vacation, I thought "only 12 days!" But then the Twelve Days of Fitness came to mind. I don't have to have some numerical body weight goal, I can make these next 12 days full of all my favorite fitness tools. Tracking, plenty of water, exercise, etc. and establish habits that seem to have slipped away. It's all about habits. Break a bad one by substituting a good one.

More will be revealed!

Long time no post

I haven't been posting mostly because I don't know where to begin or what to say anymore. Grandson moved out and I've been sad about that. I don't want to post about his private stuff in a public place so I'll leave it at that. We had a very nice Christmas - my Mom came and spent a week and we had some high quality time together. I hosted Christmas Eve and we all had a good time. I've had some reconstructive dental work so I'm on a soft diet right now but there are plenty of ways to get good nutrition. I think I post less because so much of what I'd post about is personal and I'm no longer comfortable putting it out here without some privacy. One of the best things I've learned lately I'd that rest and sleep do miraculous wonders for my state if mind! I make sure I'm in bed for a minimum of 8 to 9 hours each night. I feel so much better. I no longer feel like I have to do things if I am tired. If I am tired, I rest. My state of mind has improved greatly with just this simple practice. I also stay out of other people's business!

Acceptance

I have reached a new level of surrender and acceptance. As I begin to focus more on taking care if me, I see how much I neglected myself, especially in some areas of my health. Some of it was a rude shock but shortly after the shock I find that I am able to forgive myself, mostly, and deal with what is left, what I have today. The past is over. I am dealing with the consequences of the past, but the past is gone. I have the here and now, I'm still alive and I have the resources to make my life better. I can find out what makes me happy and do those things to heal and thrive, and move on. I feel peace with myself and everyone else more now than ever.

Update

Sorry about the last post, my phone did that. My foot started hurting again and I am at the doctor. I am doing things to take better care if myself, including enjoying myself. I went horseback riding on Sunday and loved it. I also bought an easel and put it in my big empty room ( had the floors put in so we emptied it out) and I am drawing with water color pencil and water soluble wax. Also have my yoga mat, weights, stability ball in there. A reading chair, plants and music - it's evolving into a studio of sorts. My weight isn't going anywhere but now that I am getting back to taking care of me, that should change soon.