Acceptance

I have reached a new level of surrender and acceptance. As I begin to focus more on taking care if me, I see how much I neglected myself, especially in some areas of my health. Some of it was a rude shock but shortly after the shock I find that I am able to forgive myself, mostly, and deal with what is left, what I have today. The past is over. I am dealing with the consequences of the past, but the past is gone. I have the here and now, I'm still alive and I have the resources to make my life better. I can find out what makes me happy and do those things to heal and thrive, and move on. I feel peace with myself and everyone else more now than ever.

Update

Sorry about the last post, my phone did that. My foot started hurting again and I am at the doctor. I am doing things to take better care if myself, including enjoying myself. I went horseback riding on Sunday and loved it. I also bought an easel and put it in my big empty room ( had the floors put in so we emptied it out) and I am drawing with water color pencil and water soluble wax. Also have my yoga mat, weights, stability ball in there. A reading chair, plants and music - it's evolving into a studio of sorts. My weight isn't going anywhere but now that I am getting back to taking care of me, that should change soon.

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Things are a little crazy

Problems with grandson. Very busy and trying to resolve some things. Not gaining or losing.

Turning things around

Thursday evening I ran across a bag of candy I had forgotten. I started nibbling and then I stopped myself and decided to immediately begin exercising and continue for 30 minutes. I felt so good after that I decided to go to the gym and for another workout. I was so glad that I made that decision. Sometimes I don't want to leave the house and go to the gym but deciding to have an emergency session at home worked out great. All the candy has been removed.

No more candy

I barely had any trick or treaters. Next year I'm skipping it. I am going to try and return unopened bags, and give the rest away at the office.

So much for that. I made salsa and lemon balm tea.

Checking in on Candy day

I had a nice workout last night and I have a plan for this evening to deal with candy. I consider myself vulnerable - it has not been very long since my unfortunate candy eating ended. I have a nice bag of frozen mixed fruit for snacking this evening and hope to turn in early and watch some classic scary movies while sipping my own lemon balm tea made from the leaves of my homegrown herb.