Another Quickie Update - Happy Wednesday!

Life is busy and busy is good.  I am at my 5% goal and moving on to the 10%.  I think that my loss is at a reasonable/realistic pace.  I am happy with what I eat, and feeling better. I have more energy, I move easier, and my clothes are feeling better.  I decided to move back to my house that I own and stop being a landlord. Too stressful and I have no more money left to lose!  We are also leasing a small apartment near Daughter's school. The money I save living in my own house will pay for some if not all of the extra aparment. We are excited. I can move over the course of the next two months because I want to stay until the school year finishes. We also have a plan for Grandson's living situation during his senior year so he can stay in the same school. 

I love cutting grass at my house.  It is an hour workout with a push mower and it feels good to see the results. My trees are bigger now and blooming, my lilac bush is huge and in full bloom and I can't wait to grow a bunch of blooming bushes and flowers in the sunny front and back yards.  The inside of the house was left a mess, with very icky carpet and even damage to the walls this time, but now I can fix it up and live in it, instead of handing it over again.  I am not going to focus on how icky they left it, I will make it all nice again and enjoy it!. 

My next door neighbor who was cutting his grass (always a good sign) came over when he saw me getting ready to hoist my new lawnmower out of my trunk and insisted on helping me. His two young kids were working in the back yard picking up sticks, etc. It was nice. The neighborhood has calmed down since I lived there before. I have a very good friend about a mile and a half away who walks her dogs regularly, so I have a walking buddy!  I could go on but I have to work now.

More will be revealed.

Happy Happy

Things are going very well!!  I am not even phased by the last minute notice that my tenants are moving.  I am glad they are moving. I am very positive about getting new and better tenants soon.  I am dedicated to positive thinking and for me to feel okay, even relieved about turning over the rental yet again, is huge progress. There is just no point in stressing over things. I know what I need to do, and I do it. I am in my fourth week of WW, and I am down 7 pounds. I am eating a very healthy diet. Spinach, broccoli, fresh greens, brown and wild rice, plain greek yogurt, chicken breast, salmon and tuna are staples, among other things. I am keeping things simple.  Daughter got accepted into the film production program at her college of choice. Son came home and we are all happy about that. Things are smooth.  Work is busy.

More will be revealed!

Wednesday Quickie Afternoon Update

I had a nice weigh-in on Sunday (-3.5 lbs).  Friend and I decided to change to a Saturday morning 9 a.m. meeting.  Work and life are busy.  I am taking a few days off next week, so I will have five days off in a row starting on Friday night.  My son comes home to stay with us that evening and I wanted to be off a few days for the initial adjustments.  Must focus on taking care of me and taking care of the household, some spring cleaning is in order, which we have already started. 

I find my food in in a routine that did not require dramatic changes other than downsizing portions and eliminating some snack items altogether.  This fruit thing is not something I agree with though, because there are certain fruits I avoid - for example I have never found that I can lose weight while eating banannas.  Like nuts, for me they are difficult to manage. I want more.  I may be able to sprinkle a half of one in some cereal but it has not worked well in the past.  I hesitate to try it now. Maybe later. 

Focusing on keeping my moods in check and not over reacting to anything. Daughter had an anxiety/panic episode and we are dealing with that.  I have been able to help her more by staying calm myself and helping her focus on the here and now, etc.   Therapist is also very helpful with strategies.  I know this will pass.  My goal is to keep myself calm and steady and provide her the support she needs. 

Anyway, life is not perfect, but I'll take it. I am grateful for many things. Have to stop and make those mental gratitude lists from time to time.

More will be revealed.

Friday!!!!

I love Friday.  This has been a very good week. I have stayed in my parameters every day. I look forward to a weigh-in.  I am using whole foods for the majority if not all of my meals. Little mini-oranges, as I like to call them, save the day.  They give just enough of a taste and a sweetness for a safe and innocent in between meal refresher.  Doing a point analysis helps me sort out  the higher quality foods so that I get more out of what I eat.  I am making sure I get enough fiber and protein.   I no longer have that out of control, frustrated feeling.  I feel optimistic and good about myself. I feel like have something to look forward to.  I was in a muddy rut.  And now I am on pleasant and interesting path.

Tuesday

I have no idea what this is going to look like. I am posting the Sunflower in honor of cheefulness.  I was very grumpy about the WW meeting. It was crowded, etc. and long, stuff I already knew and so on. It seemed complicated.  I had a headache. My friend left a little early because the meeting did run on and on. But I was a dedicated trouper and stayed till the end. I bought a special calculator. It makes it easy to track things. After two days I can say that it has been very easy. I have not even grocery shopped yet. Just using what I have already and plugging it into my range. I also bought a pedometer which does not appear entirely accurate but even if I calcualte error rate and subtract some steps, it shows I do quite a bit of walking during the day. I knew I did. I wanted to measure it, though so I could feel good about it. It's not the same as a full blown work out session but it is substantially better than sitting all day. So, I have not suffered any unpleasant hunger as a result of being in the lowest point classification. I have switched from coffee to tea and I feel more calm than I used to feel during the day. Overall, I think I can do this.  More will be revealed.                             

Buddy System

I have a friend who has been very helpful in getting me out of the house.  Today she called and asked if I wanted to go to the zoo. It's a great place to walk and the weather was nice. My impulse was to stay home because I am in that mode where I don't feel like leaving the house. The difference in me now and when I used to get like this is now I DO leave the house even when I have that feeling.  So I went and it was a great outing.  She said she was joining weight watchers and that there's a 1pm Sunday meeting not far from where I live. So I said, I will join, too.  I think this will be good for me to go to a weekly meeting/weigh in and have a buddy to do it, too. Here is hoping for getting back to the normal body mass index.. it is really just around the corner.

Update

My browser is no longer supported by blogger..  I have been missing in action. I didn't know anyone was still looking at my blog and I appreciate the comments. I'm hanging in there with some winter depression, not losing or gaining weight but wishing I would take off at least ten pounds. A friend of mine died in December. She was a paralegal that I worked with for many years. When we got laid off we stayed in touch. Her niece rents my house.  She was diagnosed with an aggressive lung cancer and within two weeks was on life support. They took her off and she died.  I found myself having something close to panic attacks on the days leading up to her death. There was so little time.   I still have a hard time getting used to it. There is also the realization of our mortality. I feel reasonably healthy but there is room for improvement. I have been on the lower end of my mood spectrum.  I do go to the gym regularly for workouts.  Work is good, they like me very much. It feels good to be appreciated. Kids are doing good. Daughter is close to gradulation, has been accepted and awarded substantial scholarship (almost two thirds of the tuition) at the college of her choice.  I miss blogging. I find myself not feeling very connected. So this is a good place to start. Thanks for checking in on me. Sorry to be gone so long. It is good to be back..