Quick Surrender

I am down about two pounds. The Mary Lou "platform" (for those who hate word scale) clapped for me today for the first time since I can recall. I still feel like a huge blob even though in reality I am not a huge blob. I just have body fat that I got used to not having. I can take this off but right now I hate having it on me. I have been good with my food. But I am going to have to be better. Now that I am paying attention I see where the calories "slip" in and where I need to be more careful. I slipped away around Thanksgiving and never fully returned. So now I am fully committed to the not slipping away part. It is not worth it. Because slipping away makes my work harder, and slipping away leads to more slipping away. So, I surrender completely to the idea that I need to go back to what I was doing when I lost and maintained. It was no big deal, in fact I called it the Lazy Girl's Program. But it worked. I feel discouraged every time I feel my belly fat but I have to press on and ignore it. When I get that feeling I can drop and do push ups and ab stuff. If I am not where I can do that I can take a walk, go up and down steps. Or just remind myself mentally that this will pass. I am taking care of myself now. It's temporary...